♞ 003 | This ain't as easy as it looks || Video

[onlymortal]

[Shinjiro walks from his closet into the view of the camera carrying what looks like a webcam. He heaves a sigh and tosses the thing on his bed and picks up the device...

...and swears under his breath when he notices it's already on.]

Fine, smartass. You wanna turn on? Tch. Whatever.

[His eyes focus on the feed finally.]

Yuu, thanks. You know why.

[There's another, longer pause.]

So, a lotta people know this place makes you forget stuff, right? What do you guys do to try to remember?


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Any of you had better luck findin' stuff to record with?

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[castoredux.livejournal.com]

This fuckin' closet's out to get me, Mitsuru.

[ Grumble, grumble, grumble.]

I'm tryin' not to think about it.

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[bufudynes.livejournal.com]

I somehow doubt that the closet is making you it's personal enemy. [She chuckles.]

That's a good plan.

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[castoredux.livejournal.com]

It sure as hell ain't givin' me what I want.

[A sigh.]

Yeah?

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[bufudynes.livejournal.com]

It seems to work fine for others.

[She frowned.]

Yes. I would prefer to not think about any of it, myself. I suppose it's harder for me though.

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[castoredux.livejournal.com]

[His eyes dart to the closet and he scoffed.] Figures.

...sorry.

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[bufudynes.livejournal.com]

If you would like I can ask for something for you.

[She pauses.] For what?

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[castoredux.livejournal.com]

A laptop?

[Nope. That's all he's giving. She can just wonder what he's sorry for.] Don't worry about it.

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[bufudynes.livejournal.com]

I'll ask.

[She looks frustrated.] Alright.

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[castoredux.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

[He heaves a sigh.] For fuckin' shit up.

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[bufudynes.livejournal.com]

What do you mean, Shinjiro?

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[castoredux.livejournal.com]

It's all I ever did, and...[He heaves a sigh.] it don't matter.

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[bufudynes.livejournal.com]

Stop doing that. If you have something to say, say it.

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[castoredux.livejournal.com]

...you guys musta thought choosin' to die was stupid. [Because he can't admit to himself that it was yet.]

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[bufudynes.livejournal.com]

[she looks confused.] I'm not certain what brought that on, but yes, I suppose we did. We all agreed that it we would rather die trying to protect those we cared about than simply choosing the easy way out.

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[castoredux.livejournal.com]

The easy way out? What was I supposed to do, huh? Let 'im shoot Ken?

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[bufudynes.livejournal.com]

What you did for Ken wasn't just letting yourself die. [She paused. Unless...] Was it, Shinjiro?

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[castoredux.livejournal.com]

There ain't no way I'd let anything happen to that kid, Mitsuru. My life don't matter. I ain't scared of dyin'. Dyin' for him...he deserves that much, and more. It's all I got to give, though.

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[bufudynes.livejournal.com]

[Suddenly something hits her. She's silent for a long, long time.] That's it isn't it? Why you took the Suppressants without any regard for what they did, why you went to meet Ken that night, why you came back at all. You wanted to die. It wasn't about saving Ken in the moment, or about giving up your life unexpectedly to protect him. It was what you wanted, wasn't it?

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[castoredux.livejournal.com]

[He doesn't say anything for a very long time, and he turns away from the camera, hiding his expression from view.]

I ain't felt alive for a long time, Mitsuru.

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[bufudynes.livejournal.com]

I see.

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[castoredux.livejournal.com]

...you shouldn't.

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[bufudynes.livejournal.com]

Shouldn't what?

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[castoredux.livejournal.com]

See. You ain't got no reason to feel that way.

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[bufudynes.livejournal.com]

The only reason I said I see was because it was the nicest thing I could think of to respond to you with and because there was nothing more for me to say to you.

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[castoredux.livejournal.com]

Right. [Well, this was going from awkward to shitty really fast.]